New friends old friends

So I've just finished reconnecting with old friends, and my impressions of the evening are that they really appreciate my presence and insight, and also that they are judging themselves based on me. 

I experienced many close friends trying to impress me with conversation that had no pause, a never ending run on string of words one after the other. Other friends simply closed up and kept as to themselves as they could.

What I'm noticing that they are failing to realize is that they are judging themselves and it isn't beneficial to themselves . I don't know what's best for anyone I'm just doing what I can to navigate the best I can .

And I really have no idea what I'm doing and that's okay.

I over shared what was happening in my life, I don't regret it I just don't feel like what I released into our collective group mind will have a positive or negative effect it will just be a waste of information for them.

One thing to note is that they're were many experiences with all of them where we completed each other's sentences and where I was predicting what they would say, many " taking the words out of my mouth experiences " so that's a huge plus :) .

Overall good way to spend my time . Goodnight ;3 

Good morning

So here is what's been in my head space .

I have just been really focused on killing the old self I've been to allow the person I want to be to be now.

I've been focused on curbing my aggression and practicing tonglen (metta ) mediation to help with my compassion for myself. Just very focused on me and consistent .

I've been using a muscle massager for tow days consistently, my shoulder is SORE but I'm trying to massage away a knot that I've had for years. 

According to uncle Google, the know is condensed dehydrated muscle fibers that after repeated misuse have potentially scarred together.... OH WELL! 

I'm going to keep massaging until full mobility returns :3

Bye <3 Jana 

Microcosmic Orbit 2

Hey just performed my new program of the microcosmic orbit weekly.

I finished a 12-15 hour shift and as i was doing the meditation felt the energy pool up at my feet and left ear.

I also focused on the pleasure of just breathing slowly and allowed that to bring a smile to my face.

I Also feel the energy pooling at my anahata located in my back .

I did all this while listening to this "spotify:track:1KTHYUdZYz3DRxkSGg4ZBm"

Having activities, Focusing on a Peaceful wave that emanates from me with the idea of building my ship before a storm helps :)


My prayers for my family have been successful, they are happier and healthier and we all came together this weekend for a moment but it was enough and we all supported one another with our presence. I was even able to give hugs to everyone :)

i think i will do a 2-3 min mediation to focus the energy back to my navel just to be sure the energy is not in overabundance in my organs and is in the right place

Peace.

Nothing Phenomenal

Hey there avid readership!

like the title says, nothing phenomenal happened over the course of two days

Except this ;)

    Earlier yesterday afternoon i had stayed over a friends fir some R & R.  in the morning birds were chirping, babies were cooing and she was giving me an energy healing.

my late mothers name was popping up and as she gave the healing i felt my mother come through and it almost caused spontaneous tears to come forth from me, if i didn't hold them back.

it was intense, intense enough for me to have to write about it so i can remember but yeah.

uneventful to y'all but everything to me

Peace 

Candle Blessings

Okay so here is a blessing i tried on a candle for the home and it worked !!! :D Happy Wife happy life eh :)

Personally I stopped at the ejector of satan part and modified it for what I wanted removed from my life. ;P . I also used florida water and no incense.

This is from the book/ manual " The Protestant Keepsake"

"According to the " Poesy of Prayers, or the Key of Heaven," a mass was instituted, called Candlemas, because mass is said this day. The Church blesses her candles for the whole year, and makes a procession, with hallowed or blessed candles in the hands of the faithful. The following prayer, from one of the Catholic Service books, will show the nature of the service : — " Oh, Lord Jesus Christy that enlighteneth everyone that cometh into the world, pour out thy benediction upon these can dles, and sanctify them with the light of thy grace." Another begins — " Holy Lord, Father Almighty, Everlasting God, who has created all things of nothing, and by the labour of bees caused this liquor to come to the perfection of a wax-candle, we humbly beseech thee, that by the invocation of thy most holy name, and by the intercession of the blessed Virgin whose festivals are this day celebrated, and by the prayers of all thy saints, thou wouldst vouchsafe to bless and sanctify these candles." Then, direction is given to sprinkle the candles thrice with holy water, saying, "Sprinkle me with ." He then perfumes them thrice with incense. Another prayer begins thus : — " Oh, Lord Jesus Christ, bless this creature of wax to us thy suppliants, and infuse into it, by the virtue of the holy cross, the heavenly benediction, that what-

-soever place it shall be lighted in, that the devil may depart, and tremble, and fly away with all his monsters from these habita tions, and not presume any more to disturb them." There is also this benediction : — " I bless thee, oh, wax ! in the name of the blessed Trinity, that thou mayst be in every place the ejector of Satan, and subversive of all his companions."   During the time these prayers are being said by the priest, va rious genuflections, bowings, and crossings, are made by the chief priest officiating. Then the candles are distributed, with great ceremony, from the altar. Every priest present receives a candle

on his knees ; the candles are then severally kissed, as is also the hand of the priest who delivers it. While the candles are being distributed, a hymn is sung — " A Light to Lighten the Gentiles." In Catholic countries, the people join the priests in their public processions to the churches, every person bearing a burning candle. The golden legend states, " That a lady, who had given her mantle to a poor man, for the love of our Lady, would not go to church on Candlemas Day, but went into her own private chapel, and, kneeling before the altar, fell asleep, and had a miraculous vision, wherein she saw herself at church. Into this visionary church she imagined that a troop of virgins came, with a noble virgin at their head, crowned right preciously, and seated them selves in order ; then a troop of young men, who seated themselves in like order ; then one, with a proper number of candles, gave to each a candle, and to the lady herself he gave a candle of wax. Then came St. Laurence as a deacon, and St. Vincent as a sub- deacon, and Jesus Christ as a priest, and two angels bearing candles ; then the two angels began the advent of the mass, and the virgins sang the mass ; then the virgins went, and each offered the candle to the priest, and the priest waited for the lady to offer her candle ; then the glorious Queen of Virgins sent to her to say, that she was not courteous to make the priest tarry so long for her, and the lady answered, that the priest might go on with the mass, for she should keep her candle herself, and not offer it ; and the Virgin sent a second time, and the lady said she should not offer the candle. Then the Queen of Virgins said to the mes senger, ' Pray her to offer the candle ; and if she will not, take it from her by force.' Still she would not offer the candle, and, therefore, the messenger seized it ; and the lady held so fast and long, and the messenger drew and pulled so hard, that the candle broke, and the lady kept half. Then the lady awoke, and found the piece of candle in her hand, when she marvelled, and returned thanks to the glorious Virgin, who had not suffered her to be without a mass on Candlemas Day ; and all her life kept the piece of candle for a relic, and all they that were touched there with were healed of their maladies and sickness."

Define Yourself or People will Do it For You

Books I'm currently reading: The protestant keepsake, Weaveworld, a collection of essays by Aaron leicht.

Music i'm currently listening to: Sledgehammer-Rihanna, Team-iggy Azalea, Kerli's 4 new songs-Blossom & Diamond Hard, Latest Albums by Emika- "Forever Never", Heavenly Beat- "Talent", Frank Ocean- Blonde, Kanye West - the life of pablo and other current pop culture Icons

Can't wait for: Winter (no shoveling Snow for meeee) and fall (Ghosts and witches :) ) and in that order. Then spring in ireland (faeries and dryads) and short summers ( dragons) writing wherever I am.

Things you may not know about me: I'm an ordained priest, I have no official God i pray to, I have no idea what i'm doing, I Like Coffee, I wasn't Always a pure positive person or a talker, most of the time its intentional and takes work.

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Curse Removals

So curses and other forms of malefica are real, and spiritual cleansing as Draja michareck states is something the spiritual community often neglects.

So today, I decided to remove any and all forms of malefica I have ever sent to my father ( moms passed to the other realms so i think shes Good :) )

You know when you're a teenager and SO mad at dad and mom cause they didn't get you that shiny new  season pass you wanted. and you beam hate at them for like ever???

well as a magician and spiritual practitioner, Because you practice and have more Authority in the spiritual world your mood and emotions can and sometimes will kill or worse, But I'm pretty sure we don't want that for our loved ones right???

So if you ever find yourself in a space where you are upset with a loved one or anyone just for existing and assuming their rights as an individual and want to make up for that evil eye you sent out there way you can try this method my Ancestors and I have conjured up.

You need a lime, two hands and sincere prayer .

I prayed to whatever God Im currently listening to at the time and sincerely asked for assistance in removing Decades of misunderstanding and harm sent his way, and as I prayed i rolled a lime between the palms of my hands up and down in prayer.

As I Prayed the oddest thing happened, i saw his mother with grey hair getting older, and heard my mother calling me by my nickname. then as i continued my prayers i stated that i wanted my father to have joy in his life from this moment and every other and to be happy now and forever.

 It was at this phase of the prayer that i began to him him state my nickname spiritually, he kept calling out my name as a way to get my attention but i did not stop until i knew that it was done and that there was a strength and authority in my fathers spiritual voice. and then i saw needles enter the lime and I figure I'm done for now.

I will wait for the results 8/23/2016

UPDATEEEE :

Results from the Lime ritual
     My father had more energy and was working out, he cleaned and washed the puppies and definatly had a bit more pep in his step, results were within two days :) Imagine what could happen if he gave me perission and activly participated ;) ehhhhhhhh :D well Back to da Sweet Life of being a celeb :3 #CuriousCat

I Wonder

For many men in my area, they have the added advantage of being bisexual.

I say advantage because they have all the benefits of passing as straight and then when it is time to be in any form of a relationship with a person of the same gender, in my extensive experience they have secret relationships with members or a member of a discourse community of their preference who has low self esteem and consequently low standards .

This in effect usually causes the bisexual man to take advantage of the situation and not treat his partner like a partner but as a secret lover, setting the stage for a lifetime of emotional mistreatment and abuse to the other partner.

My issue is not with men or women who are bisexual, my issue is with men and women who take advantage of other people in relationships, specifically culturally considered "non-traditional" relationships or straight.

from what i've seen the cultural standard in the community in this area is to not be who you are and when the opportunity comes to find a partner to not treat them like a partner but like a sexual plaything, which although in some cases may appeal to me, does not fit my current personal standard.

Sex is sex and meant to feel good and all that wonderful jazz, but the politics and social standing tied in with how it is practiced personally doesn't sit well with me.

I have never been comfortable with being subservient to anything, i am happy to be friend, or co worker or even teammate but to be treated less than, in any fashion really grinds my gears. So i find when in the face of these situations i'm at a loss. I of course want to engage sexually with who i'm attracted to, but i am extremely unwilling to practice the art of becoming and through repeated practice believing myself to be less.

I wonder if other members of the world have experienced this and how they overcame it, even when friends and loved ones practiced the behavior.

I wonder.